(So I turned in that project the period before I presented it, three days after it was due...)
Okay, so I'm Catholic, and yesterday at church we had a guest priest celebrating mass. He was from Slovakia and had been doing missionary work in Honduras. He was amazing. It was awesome to hear the way that he looked at the world. I felt like I really related to him. He'd gone through so much in order to help others who live in such awful conditions compared to the developed countries. The diseases, and the labor that he went through were intense, but the remarkable part is how he'd been able to overcome them and reach out to the poorest of the poor. It's inspiring.
I wish I could do something like that- go to another country to help others. That's why I want to go to Uganda, but my parents won't let me. The last words that the priest, Father Jasso Jaroslav, said we're, "
Don't give up, never give up, and don't worry, be happy." I lost it after he said that. I had tears streaming down my face. I thought of Uganda and how I should not give up on wanting to go. Those last words really hit home. I thought of the second half, how it pretty much summed up my junior year. Like, why do I need to worry about things, I'm only sixteen. I have my whole life to worry about more important things.
So I was standing there, wiping my tears, feeling really embarrassed that I was crying in church. (Even though I'm a really emotional person and cry all of the time in public from hearing, reading, or remembering something.) I didn't even say the right words at the end of mass or sing the right words to the closing song. I just kept repeating to myself those words so that I wouldn't forget what moved me to tears. I wrote them down when I got to my room and they're pinned to my cork board now. I like keeping quotes around. On my board, currently I have Walt Disney, Henry David Thoreau, One Direction, Amara Sharp, Matthew 17:20, Halls pep talk, and Great Gatsby quotes. I can't wait until I print out some John Green. I've become a bit obsessed with him since I read....
Wow, way off track there. So Father Jaroslav really said what I needed to hear. Those eleven words summed up my existence. I never did get to thank him for what he said. Right when I thought things were going good, I found out that the Uganda meeting is at the same time as the confirmation rehearsal in which I'd committed myself to doing in April. Also, my dad is not going to go if he has to take my sisters to basketball practice. I kinda gave up on Uganda, but I really don't want to. I think about it everyday. I want this experience. I've been thinking of how to raise the money on my own- the jobs I'll work, what I'll have to sacrifice. I've thought a lot about it. It really sucks that my parents aren't supportive about this. I always ask them if I can travel, with a safe and trustworthy group I might add, and every time my dad just laughs at me. I
t bothers me that he won't even give it a chance. I have begged for Uganda and if he at least goes to the meeting I'll be happy. If after that he makes his final decision, I'll respect it.
I have not given up yet. Thank you Fr. Jaroslav. I also advise you to take these words and hopefully they make a difference in your life, too.